on the way to the airport today i was overcome by emotion on the bus and it was something i wasnt expecting i mean i havnt felt emotion in a while at least not emotion of that kind in i dont even know how long and today it was there it was real and it caught me totally off guard i didnt want to come to rome i wanted to stay in ireland something happend there and something i didnt expect happened there and it was crazy i dont know what it was and it wasnt the italian girl even tho we had our fun but it might have been the canadian girl because really she was so damn cute and happy and i dont know she told me she would probably never see me again and i want to prove her wrong on that one but still she walked me to the bus stop which was fantastic and it wasnt until now that i realized that mentally this vacation is over its taking its toll i have a week and a half left and all i want to do is stop moving and stop meeting people and stop opening up and talking talking talking and being myself because i dont know if ill ever see them again in two days dont get me wrong i love the fact that im out here that im in rome that im doing something to get out of my comfort zone but i just cant wait to stop for a week and i know after 2 weeks of being home my point of view will change and ill be back to where i was and ill start looking for jobs over here and who knows what the fuck will happen but i know its me im weird im fucked up but you know that i just think i want to be back in cork or edinburgh and just chill just stop just find a job and stop moving and keep people in my life for more than 2 days or make out with a girl and see her more than twice in a week or actually sleep next to someone instead of in a room with five other people but really im having fun and i have learned a lot about myself from this trip its not a negative post just emotions that i didnt expect to feel but im glad im feeling them and its time for another night to drunkenly fall asleep alone in a room with five other people because thats what i do.
the end.
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Matt!! turn your phone on! i tried sending you my address but my phone told me like a week after i sent it, the text couldn't be sent because you didn't check your inbox. (something along those lines at least). So, please either turn your phone on or call me. I miss you! Hope you're having a fantastic time.
Much Love,
Roxey
i cant turn my phone on i would love to but email me your address to mat@sportscarspecialties.com and send me your number and ill call you from my next stop, i hope you check this soon and ill see you when i get back
<3
Mat
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